I am Back! ^_^

Sometimes positive changes in ourselves happen so slowly that we don't notice them. I am sensing these changes and they are helping me deal with a prolonged break up. I don’t know why, but I no longer feel obsessed with it. It’s probably because, after a year, I can no longer maintain that maximum level of intensity when I’m still not seeing any light at the end of the tunnel.

I had to let that go, maybe for my mental health. I was beginning to fear that, when I felt down, I might stay down; I might not be able to bounce back. I had to pull myself back from that edge (and fortunately, I was able to).

So maybe that’s why I have been feeling better lately. I am thinking more clearly about other priorities in my life: my family, my work, other commitments and concerns.

I am getting out more, making plans again, having fun.  At times it feels like a foggy shroud is lifting from my brain. There’s not as much swirling in my head or swinging of my emotions as there used to be. I don’t feel as tired and worn out as I did.

So what’s different? I think it’s that I have learned how to “turn it off” when I need to. Instead of being preoccupied night and day with it, I seem to be able now to shift my attention to other important things. I feel more balanced, calmer, more relaxed, less cranky.

It’s taken me a long time, but I think I have finally motivated myself.

Well, Now I have some new things lined up. Will write about them soon.

DRAMA :-D

Family get together..All masi, mama, mami, cousins in one house..Isn’t it fun..Well I am not here exactly talking about family get together, I am talking about that loving DRAMA which happens when we all are leaving.  :-D

Whenever I and mom are leaving from my masi’s, mama’s or some other relative’s house, there is this tradition in my family, that they give either money or some gift. Each and every masi, nani, mama, mami come and try to push a 500 rupee note into my pocket. And I say “ Arey nahi, aise thodi na. Iski kya zaroorat hai.", and all that. I know that I have to do this drama for 2 minutes maximum and then accept the gift, ultimately. 

Sometimes, I thought this drama is pointless. So, I simply accept the money or gift at first. Whereas, my mother is busy with her drama of not willing to accept. And when my mother sees that I am not doing it, she comes and does it on my behalf as well. "Arey ek ko de diya na, kaafi hai.", and slightly pushes the gift away. Whereas I sit with my hands in the position of catching a ball from the sky. I ultimately do get the gift. So, my mom uses all her energy in vain.

This entire giving-ranting-pushing-pulling-screaming-kissing-scratching-winking-smiling-taking episode goes on for 10 whole minutes. It is fun. But pointless. Seriously.

It’s funny too. I mean, both the sides know that this ALWAYS happens. But STILL both of them do it with all their might.

Interesting, isn't it. :-)

24th August, 2011 – A Bad Day

We left our house that day. The house, where I have grown. From being a dumb 10 year old kid, to being a smart 23 year old girl—the memories with my dad, the journey, the pangs, the raves and the rants have been witnessed by this very house. It can never be erased from my memory. Not even when I become a 90 year old woman.

3,2,1....Happy New Year

Mosambi Ka Juice :-)

 

  

Sweet Lime(Mosambi), botanical name Citrus lemettioides is a citrus fruit which has good nutritional value. Like all citrus fruits, sweet lime is rich Vitamin C. Also it’s a good source of potassium. Sweet lime is free of fat and sodium. It also contains fiber, magnesium, calcium and zinc.

I have been drinking Sweet Lime juice daily since last 1 week. I reach office around 8 in the morning, work for half an hour and than its “JUICE TIME”. This has helped me reduce the temptation for tea at 10 in the office. Good experiment!

Der Lagi Lekin..It Feels Good To Hear This Song :-)

Der lagi lekin maine ab hai jeena seekh liya
Jaise bhi ho'n din maine ab hai jeena seekh liya
Ab maine ye jaana hai, khushi hai kya, gham kya..
Dono hi, do pal ki hai ruttein
Na yeh thehre na rukein
Zindagi do rangon se bane
Ab roothe, ab mane
Yehi toh hai, yehi toh hai, yahaan

(It took time, but I learnt to live,
however be the days, I have learnt to live,
now I have known this, what's happiness and what's sorrow
both are weathers of two moments
neither they wait nor stay
life gets made of two colors,
now angry, now placated,
this, this is here..)

Der lagi lekin maine ab hai jeena seekh liya
Aansuon ke bin maine ab hai jeena seekh liya
Ab maine, Yeh jaana hai kise kahoon apna
Hai koi, jo yeh mujh se keh gaya
Yeh kahaan tu reh gaya
Zindagi toh hai jaise kaarvan
Tu hai tanha kab yahaan
Sabhi toh hai, sabhi toh hai yahaan

(It took time, but I learnt to live,
Without tears, I have learnt to live
Now I have known whom to call mine
there is someone, who has told me
where have you been left,
life is like a convoy,
when are you alone here (you never are)
everything, everything is here..)

Koi sunaaye jo hansti muskurati kahani
Kehta hai dil, main bhi sunoon,
Aansoo mein moti ho jo kisi ke nishani
Kehta hai dil, main bhi chunoon
Baahein dil ki ho baahon mein hi, chalta
chalun yunhi raahon mein
Bus yunhi, ab yahaan, ab wahaan

(when someone tells a happy, cheerful story,
my heart says, I'd listen too,
If there are pearls in tears, someone's souvenir,
my heart says, I'd pick too..
I should be embracing my love only,
I should be walking just like that in the paths,
just like that.. now here, now there... )


 - Movie: Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara
Music Director: Shankar Mahadevan, Ehsaan Noorani, Loy Mendonca
Lyricist: Javed Akhtar
Singer(s): Shankar Mahadevan

Sunday..What A Funday :)

Sunday – aaaah! Staying in pajamas with a hot drink, the Sunday papers and a view of the outside world from the comfort of your own sofa.

A glorious holiday at the end of every week to celebrate the end of a long and tiring six working days. I think the specialty of Sunday remains in the fact that it comes to us onlyafter a continuous work of six days. Thus it is natural for everyone to wait for this day eagerly as it provides recreation and rest. I relax on this day after hard work of six days in whichever way I feel fit. I hail it with joy and in a way of my own.

Normal scenario of Sunday is usually getting up late, and having a brunch (and not a breakfast). This is followed by watching television, till lunch is ready and again going back to the T.V until it is time for supper. 

Sometimes it may consist of a family get-together, playing games, going for a movie, catching up on small personal things which we plan to do on Sundays or indulging in any other plans with peers, it is a full day of fun and relaxation. Most events start in the early afternoon, and end in time and then to go to bed at a reasonable hour just to prepare for the same long working 6 days. The next morning - it is time to get to work! It is to realize that the weekend is over, and a long wait of six days lies between you and your next Sunday. 

Life goes on in the same fashion and very few of us can enjoy the real meaning of 'All play and no work!' So.... 

Don’t waste Ur Sunday! 

Make it a Funday! 

Have a Blast! 

Bcoz Sunday will not Long Last!